The Sacred Undoing: My Path to Inner Liberation
The Awakening Begins
"The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are." — Carl Jung
We live in a world that teaches us to shape-shift for acceptance—to be who we’re expected to be, not who we truly are. But at some point, if we’re lucky, we start the undoing. The remembering. The sacred rebellion that brings us home to ourselves.
For me, that began around age 25. But if I’m honest, I’d been unraveling long before then—just unconsciously.
When the Masks Started to Slip
In 2015, life as I knew it started to feel unbearable. I had dropped out of university after 2.5 years, studying something I wasn’t passionate about, and was living in my dad’s house again—raising my son and caring for my younger sister for $600/month from my stepmom while Will worked full time. I wasn’t thriving, just surviving.
I started noticing the way people partied, drank, and numbed out—and it began to bother me. Sometimes I joined in to numb it out, other times I was filled with rage and resentment. Deep down, I knew I wanted more, but I had no idea how to get it. So I took it out on everyone else.
The Leap That Changed Everything
That same year, I got this wild idea: What if we just… left? I made pros and cons lists. I researched everything—schools, housing, politics, property taxes—and I convinced Will to move to Alberta.
It was a full reset.
I got a job right away. I worked in restoration, then eventually landed a role as an admin assistant at an investment firm—despite not being “qualified.” I stopped smoking weed, barely drank, worked out regularly, and started watching The Secret on repeat while visualizing our dream house.
Within a year, we were living in a beautiful townhouse in Sylvan Lake. By the year after that, we owned our first home. At 25, I was a homeowner with a fiancé. We had come from generational poverty—none of our parents had ever owned homes. But I was beginning to believe in my own power.
The Sacred Shedding
When we bought our home, things leveled up again. I found Bob Proctor’s content, started studying mindset and manifestation, and even bought his online course. I quit my job, and instead of going to fashion school in BC, I chose to stay in Alberta and take a tattoo apprenticeship.
The deeper truth? Moving provinces didn’t just give me opportunity—it gave me distance. With Will working away and no family constantly pulling on my energy, I had uninterrupted time to reconnect with myself. No BBQs. No guilt trips. Just space to breathe.
I read books I actually cared about. I rollerbladed, went to yoga, meditated. I learned to listen to my own voice instead of the voices of my parents, society, or anyone else's expectations. The more I did that, the more I let go—of masks, of toxic people, of conditioning.
I’m Still Becoming
That move, that undoing, led me to where I am today: I now own a private tattoo studio, I’ve bought an even newer home, and I’m circling back to my original love—fashion. I’m creating art and clothing through Kalise, my ode to the wild feminine that fought to exist inside me for so long.
And still, the peeling continues.
Every day, I shed a little more. New situations, old triggers, resurfaced wounds—all asking: Is this still true for me? Can I respond differently this time? That’s the nature of growth. Of becoming.
And honestly? I miss that sacred solitude. With Will home every night now, I’m reminded how important it is to still carve out space for me—to evolve uninterrupted. Because that’s when my biggest breakthroughs always come.
Liberation is a Lifelong Process
Shedding who the world told you to be isn’t a one-time event. It’s a lifetime commitment. A sacred undoing. A devotion to truth.
If you’re feeling suffocated by the shoulds, by the boxes, by the noise—know that you can choose something different. You can move provinces. You can change your mind. You can reinvent yourself as many times as it takes to remember who you’ve always been.
The muse lives in the woman you were before the world got its hands on you. She’s worth coming home to.
2 comments
I needed to read this today teesh, thank you so much for sharing your beautiful writing and story. As always I appreciate you! There’s a reason we met and reason I’ve always felt so drawn to you! Grateful for your friendship!
Im ready to shed the feeling of not being enough. Thankful it was apart of me as i have climbed incredibly high because of this feeling to consistently push to be the truest form of me but shedding back the layers now as i have become what i thought i couldn’t. Constant conversations to myself finding my truest form.
Peeling back my mom mask and digging so much deeper has felt so empowering.
My life would look passionate, confident, rich & resilient. I would feel sexy, in complete control.
It could mean a very busy, fast pace lifestyle in which i do enjoy i have come to realize.